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,,ONLINE NOTEPAD,, 30/10/2024
i dated someone from epik who i was into very much..
before we met we did chat online for some months..
i saved up for expensive flight ticket to argentina..
we met & i spent with this person over 40 days..
but things were not good bad things happened & values beliefs and differences too big clashing..
i did mistakes he did mistakes even tho he probably doesnt think he did..
takes two to argentine passionate tango and with that leg kicking but i dont do choreographed dances..
from 2 strangers who had feelings for each other and shared some moments to 2 strangers who have not much to share with each other anymore..
resentment..
it hurts and it takes time to move on from idea of life could have been but only in fantasy..
not good be with someone who wants to change you or you also can't be with them as they are..
there is always room for improvement & experiences and people you meet shapes you but on your own terms and pace..
mutual compatibility and attraction not easy to find..
but if there is lack of trust & lack of support & lack of respect..
it's just not ment to be & it hurts..
i am now back in UK back to caravan single life with person who helps me and care without any hidden agenda..
that person is my british ex who i am friend with he is real friend noone ever helped me in my life like him..
and when it comes to argentinian now ex he doesn't seem to be that decent..
i don't want to be friend with this one..
he trolls and make nasty comments then i make nasty comments back..
he flirts online or make sexual remarks to others online and i don't want to be part of that..
he talked sexually to me while thinking it's cool to give other women oral sex etc like it's nothing..
i don't have respect for men like that..
i don't want to play these nasty games i don't trust this person
lots of words in the past "i love you" etc but not much of action i was fool..
i don't play on and off games if you let someone go and didn't stick with them then be it i am not your doormat..
if someone who wanted you as life partner and even more and you not willing to support them that's not for me too..
i rather be single than both be miserable..
i am not into god complex self centred self absorbed men who call me narcissist but cant reflect on themselves..
because sure i have lots of flaws but i usually reflect take accountability..
but you are not my hero as you think of yourself..
you will not control the way i look my beliefs or not beliefs what should i do and how should i behave and feel..
go back watching your stupid youtube tutorial videos of how to be macho arrogant disrespectful player man if thats how you want to be.. but i have no respect for men like that at all and don't want person like that in my life..
i am my own person you are your own person & you and i its run its course....

pictures in my gallery is sex doll who got some resemblance face features of my argentinian ex..
i fantasize to get this sex doll but its not cheap and will postage be delivered or stolen to my mother address??
so probably it's not gonna happen....

MY FUTURE HUSBAND is sexy & always there for me..
MY FUTURE HUSBAND is hard for me all the time & please me as i wish..
MY FUTURE HUSBAND don't try to change me & doesn't shame me or guilt trip me..
MY FUTURE HUSBAND is loyal emotionally & physically..
MY FUTURE HUSBAND is reliable & trusthworthy..
MY FUTURE HUSBAND is respectful of my feelings & understands me & makes me happy..
MY FUTURE HUSBAND will help me to make money together to create adult content....